Waves of Change

Change can certainly be a very beautiful thing and with having Audrey join our family, I am adoring the change and transition. Last night Barry told me that he feels like we’re a real family now and hearing him say that made my eyes fill up with tears. I haven’t been able to place the feelings that have erupted inside me since Sunday, but when he said that it was exactly what I’ve been feeling: “Okay, we’re all here now. Life can go on…” 

We’re complete and Little Audrey – in all her newness – makes us feel so whole. And tonight while we were sitting on the couch watching the latest episode of Parenthood (if you don’t watch that show, you should) and Barry was holding Audrey all torpedoed up in her swaddle and Syd chewing on her bone between us, we heard little feet coming down the hallway. Of course it was Maggie who had gone to bed a while before but was awake and in search of her mama’s arms. 

After her puff of hair and sleepy eyes found their way into my arms, I laughed as I imagined what we looked like ~ Barry with the tiny little one, Syd in the middle and Maggie snuggled in my arms feeling not so little anymore. I’m pretty sure that both our girls would  happily sleep in our arms every single night if they could and Sydney would find a space between making sure that we’re all linked together like a chain. 

You see, we’re a tight-knit crew. When we’re on a walk and one of us crosses the street to throw away a poop-bag of Sydney’s, she stops and waits for us to be together again. Sydney doesn’t like to continue walking without us all together. Maggie is much the same, celebrating times when we’re all together and finding comfort knowing where both Barry and I are. She isn’t just a Mama or Papa girl, she’s a Family girl.

When the voice inside my head says ‘Okay, we’re all here now. Life can go on.” I really understand what that means and when my husband tells me that he feels like we’re a real family now, I can’t help but whole-heartidly agree.  I’m pretty sure that our girls, Sydney included, would agree as well….we’re all here and we’re a real family now.